Wednesday, April 14, 2010

God is Good

I recently have been thinking about my plans for next year. I have finally picked a major or I guess it picked me when I stumbled across it, I have found a group of girls who I absolutely love spending time with, and I have been reconnected with a good friend of mine who lives in Nacogdoches and I love spending time with her and her family (that is obvious because I am with them during a lot of my free time). I have grown so much this past year and I am truly becoming my own person. This year has not come without its trials but it is the struggles and trials that make us stronger. So when seeing how great this year has been I was wondering how next year would top it.

I plan on taking summer classes this summer so that I can achieve my goal of having 60 hours to move off campus. But when planing this out things kept coming up. I soon realized when nothing was going my way that I was trying to take control over my life. I asked myself the question of what message am I sending to people, myself, and God when I try to control my own life. We all sin and we all struggle but I was trying to control my life so much that I was sending the message of God could not handle my life and that I could do better at it. I was convicted of this when I got back to school. I felt like I was losing control over my life. Summer classes weren't working out, I didn't have a place to live for next year, and even though I knew I could get an apartment by myself I knew that my parents were uncomfortable with that so that was not the most ideal situation. But when I was convicted of having control over my life I broke down and prayed. I just kept telling God that I knew it would be hard for me to give up control but I couldn't do it anymore, it was too stressful and too time consuming. It has not been without struggle giving up control and I still have been having my moments but I am definitely getting better at it. And when I gave up control I could see things start to turn around.
My summer classes started to come together. Even though they have not fully come together I have put my trust in God that He will work it all out. But what made me really want to write this was the exciting news I got today. I went on a retreat this past weekend and got to talking to one of my really good friends here and a girl we had just met. We realized that we were all looking for roommates and a place to live next year. My friend Michelle who was one of the girls I was talking to told us that she is looking for roommates so she could keep renting the house that she was already living in. Nothing was definite but we all decided that sounded like a perfect idea. The other girl even remembered another girl who needed a place to live to make up the one last person that we needed. Everything seemed to be coming together but nothing was official. So we just started praying that God's will be done. Well today I got a call that the owner is going to let us rent the house. God has blessed me so much, my roommates love God and will be there to lift me up when I fall down. It amazes me what can happen when you let God take the reigns of your life. I will keep praying that he continues to work everything out.
I don't know what next year will bring but it doesn't really matter. It is already looking better than this year. I will continue to trust in God and in His plan for my life. And with that it will be a great year and I can't wait for it to start.